Hello again, my friends. As you should all know by now, I had a cosmetic and functional rhinoplasty at the beginning of 2017. That means that I’m already almost two months post-op! Which is crazy! It seems like yesterday I was counting down the days until my surgery.
I’m here today to tell you a little bit what post-surgery life has been like, and my newly found sense of self-love.
Learning to love yourself is not an easy task.
After my surgery, I wanted to stop time and hide away so that no one would see me until I was fully healed. I wanted to cover the tiny scars with makeup until they eventually faded away.
I am not ashamed of my surgery. I’m not embarrassed about why I had it. I didn’t love the way I looked, and it felt unfair to keep living an unhappy life when I had the chance to improve it.
I am a work in progress. My nose is still healing and I am still healing, too. This was the most life-changing decision I’ve ever made.
I had to get contacts after surgery because my nose was too weak to support the weight of my glasses. This was a very big change. Glasses have always been a part of my identity and now, I can’t hide behind them. I’m still getting used to this part.
Maybe I cheated a little with the self-love; I had help. But this has given me something that I never thought was possible – I love my nose.
Sometimes I forget I even had a nose job. Nobody looks at me differently, and if I haven’t told someone about it, they can’t tell. It looks and feels natural to me. I can breathe better than ever before and sleep better, too. This surgery improved my life in the smallest ways.
However, something I will never forget is how changing my nose has made me feel. I feel like a different person than before. I’m not constantly afraid that someone will look at me from my profile. I’m not covering my face with my hands every time someone looks at me. I don’t have to run and hide every time someone takes a picture of me.
I know that everyone was a little iffy about me having cosmetic surgery (even me!) but my friends and family are happy with my new nose. Having surgery is a really personal decision but I’ve never been happier.
I am still the same person that I was before. I still have insecurities. Plastic surgery will not change everything about your life, but it helped me. It helped me to move on from the chapter of my life where I hated my appearance. It helped me to feel more confident and beautiful than ever before.
I am still getting used to this new nose. I am still healing, changing, and growing. This surgery was just a start to the ways I want to improve my life this year.
Being able to look in the mirror and feel proud of my appearance is something I never thought I’d be able to do. To me, that makes everything worth it.